This year is super amazing and unpredictable. I started this year in a new environment as I kicked off my first career last year. Then I thought I need to pursue another lesson in university since I have decided to do cross major in my career. I was not so sure when will be the right time to go back to school, however I eventually applied for scholarships. Until Alhamdulillah Allah bless me with a scholarship I've never thought before after I failed on another application. At that time, I was happy and confused at the same time. I have never thought that the timeline for me to go will be so fast which means that I had to resign from my position as soon as possible. Perhaps this is not my first plan, yet I believe this is the best for me.
Other than that, I have exciting stories this year. I did my first volunteering activity in Jakarta early this year. I got my first internship in one of start up company after I worked as full time employee in a big company where in both of them I received bountiful knowledge, experience, and inspiration. My brother successfully finished his master degree and decided to continue into PhD level. My very very best friend surprisingly told me that she's getting married soon. I joined my first open trip and watched my fav singer's live performance. I met a lot of new and amazing people who inspire me and show me another good perspective to be learned. I did many things I had never did before.
I need to grasp things to be learned carefully from what I have been through this year. As we are counting the days to new year, it is exactly the right time to see, evaluate, and gaze thoughtfully.
The past few weeks, I reunited with several best friends from high school, university, and office. We talked deeply about our life and exchanged our current situation. Realize it or not, ready or not, life after school is sooo unpredictable. We are pushed to be mature enough to face this life. We have to be ready to make important decisions of our life when everything seems to be right. Or we have to be ready to overcome situation where everything seems to be wrong. In this stage of life, I heard so many different stories from my friends and see so many different situation of them. Sometimes, I worry, thinking am I the one who's left behind? Or am I the one who leave them? Until I realize, that's not the point of everything. Life is life. Everyone has their own story. No need to worry too much as long as we try our best in every situation and pray hard. I hope years from now, I still can keep the people I love, my circle, to be close to me. I think this is the best way to understand this life. To remind me about who I used to be, what I have been through, where I belong, and how to be honest with my self. Because in this life we need those kind of people who willingly give us their best advice and stand with us whatever the situation is.
After all, I realize that everything I achieved this year is purely because of Allah. My story becomes like this is because of Allah. And I still don't know what will happen next year and so. I just wanna be a better human being.
Alhamdulillah. Allah has been so nice to me. And He always will. I have to remind my self that I have to be grateful on everything. I have to be close to Allah and remember Him in any circumstance. I have to pray more and do things I have to do as a Moslem.
Lately, I often think about afterlife which makes me so scared. I still feel so bad. I realize that all what we have and what we achieve are not ours. Life in this dunya is very short. I hope that we can make the most of it as good deeds for our preparation to akhirah. I wish we have more time and more opportunities to make our parents and the people we love proud and happy. I wish we become the kind of person who can do meaninful things for others. I wish year by year we all become a better version of ourselves.
Let's face 2019 with new hope, more resolution, and more good deeds. :)
Wish you all the best.
